I'm actually pretty lonely.

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I'm sure a lot of people know how it feels to just sit there and not know what to do while your cousins/mom/dad/whofuckever bustles around doing crap and you feel like shit because you don't know what the fuck to help with.

And the stupidest thing is when you do try to help, they just shoot you down by saying "You're seriously bad at this".

Well sorry for getting in the way. Why do you think I don't help most of the time? WTF. It's like wanting one thing and the other. Don't fucking judge me.

Don't judge me.

I don't even know what's worse - being labeled incompetent or being labeled useless.

I fucking hate being the eldest girl in the family. I fucking hate being a girl, period. It's like a shitload of stupid expectations like being good with the knife, or something. Prejudice is so fucking dumb.

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